Beginnings, endings and lessons learnt

It is the end today. But also the beginning.
The year taught me a lot. It has been one of the most important years of my life. The lessons of this year have been invaluable.
It taught me to let go. I showed me sorrow, it showed me pain, but it also showered me with love, abundance, joy, wealth, new opportunities and old souls who would never have come into my life, had I not created the mess I did.
Yes, 2009 was a year of unexpected twists and turns. I had to clear out the old before attracting the new. I had to learn the meaning of love, so I could learn the meaning of loss. And I had to learn about loss, before learning of the beauty of love.
It’s been a year I will never forget. A year of changes and surprises. A year of love.
A year which would never have been what it was if I wasn’t blessed with the souls who make up my family. And by family, I mean my soul family… Mum Dad, Za Anu, Noor, Traill, Bianca, Allan, Gladys, Sneaks, Tia, and who knows, who else. I'm sure there are still a few out there I haven't met yet.
I’m blessed, me.

Life's cycles

Ever wonder what people from your life do when they leave your life? Do they still giggle at nothing, playfight with the air, indulge in heavy Friday morning breakfasts, relish the planning of their next holiday? Or do they just turn into someone else and start doing things you’ve never seen them do. Like bungee jump off the mountains, or meditate in the ruins of a temple in an ancient Arabian land or take a walk through some of their past lives, adopt an animal… Do they still laugh from their middle, love from their hearts, get rid of their masks and step out brand new?
Because that’s what I think they do. See, I believe in people. I know we go on. We regenerate. We change skins, we adopt new faces, new bodies, new lifetimes, new loves, new people, new lands, new beginnings. We don’t end. Like the energy we’re made of, we transform into someone else. Someone that the people from our lives don’t know once they leave our lives. We become bigger. Better. Stronger.
There’s really no point wondering what people from your life do once they’re not in your life because you’ll never know about their transformation from an ugly duckling into a swan. You’ll never see them swan-dive off a bridge, or feel their vibration when they meditate in the ruins, or witness the powerful regeneration of their soul. How would you react to them then? Like you would to a stranger?

Hello nice to meet you... You remind of someone I used to know once, but no… you couldn’t possibly be. But hey! You do big breakfasts too? Nice. Jump off of mountains into nothingness below? Yeah, I once knew someone who had a similar dream... Doubt they’d ever have your kind of courage though. So anyway, nice to meet you Stranger. I wish you well. I will remember you because I feel like I know you somehow. And yet, of course I don’t... I used to know someone who would love to meet someone like you. Someone who deep within had the desire to live your life. But not your courage... Ah well. Be safe. Fly high.
And then they’d walk away from you, shaking their head in confusion. I swear I feel like I know this person, they’d be thinking. And they couldn’t be more right. Or more wrong.

And you? Would you realise you too were meeting someone who was once in your life? Wouldn’t they have evolved since they stopped being a part of your life? Because that’s how some of life’s biggest lessons are learnt. That’s how caterpillars grow beautiful multi-hued wings that they spread and fly away with when they metamorph into butterflies.
Those who chose to leave your life only entered it for a reason in the first place. The reason being to make you love them so much that them, and only them, would be the one to teach you some of your most invaluable life lessons. Pain is your biggest teacher. Without pain you’ll never truly understand what it feels like to be painfree. You’d never appreciate happy if you didn’t know sad. You wouldn’t recognize a good soul if you haven’t met a few bad ones.
Life’s lessons are strange. But they’re there for a reason. Just as the people in your life are. Just as those who left your life are. So what do they do once they leave your life? Will they ever be recognizable to you again? Maybe not. But does it even matter? You’re not recognizable to them either. And therein lies the beauty of it all. The eternal enigma of love, life, lessons and learning.

Love is

There’s more I need to say. To you, to them, to myself… But the words won’t do justice. I’m putting my feelings on the page instead. I hope you feel them, understand them.

Love can’t die. Contrary to what the spurned and heartbroken say, love cannot die. It’s physically impossible, in as much a way as love can be physical. But more often than not, love is an emotion, it’s a feeling, a thought, a knowing. It’s energy. It’s alive. And just because we can’t touch it, doesn’t mean it isn’t alive, right?